14 March 2016.
Sometimes images refuse to leave your mind. Memories flood in and leave you washed out. Devoid of emotions, just a blank dull ache. You try everything to distract yourself but the images insist. You want to smile but it seems you have forgotten how to. Your smiles were tied up with those images, the creator of those images. And all of a sudden, that creator had to leave. For whatever reason.So often in life, a person walks away. Without rhyme or reason. You are left there, all alone…with your broken heart in one hand and the other hand raised in a half-goodbye. But he never waited to see you wave Goodbye.
That unsaid Goodbye hurts. Over months and years.
No matter how old you grow, that sudden moment of separation always hurts immensely. While you are oblivious to the world, a friend leaving you alone in the playground hurts. When you grow up, the contexts change. The feeling never does. You just learn to put up a mask and move on with life. Do you really grow strong with growing years?
In your mind, you are still holding strong to thoughts of creating so many memories together. You refuse to accept it is all over.
All you do…..can really do, is shed tears and hope you get all washed out. From those images, from that guilt.
Of not having been there to say that final Goodbye.
The opportunity missed, that Goodbye will always remain unsaid.